So much going on...

Phew.
Wow..it's been awhile my blog tak ditulis apa2..:(
Yeah, there were too much things goin' on after raya.new year and also new semester.
But,that was last year punyer cerita.Takyah la nak ingat2 sangat.
I'll keep the sweet memories with me..and leave yang tak best sumer in trash.:)

I can't believe it's already a new year,a new chapter..and..hopefully a better life for me.. I am 22 now and I think there are so many things that I need to change about myself. I just wanna be a better person. It's not that I hate the old ANN, but I just think that.. I.. just need.. to.. change myself... CHANGE.. yes, the word!

New semester cam ok2 jerh.Not that best giler..or not that sux giler..
Every semester is new challenge I guess..so,takyah la nak bitch about it..
and..at this very moment am writing this blog, I have at least 22 days more till the final. Nak habis dah the semester.. *sigh*

I have two more semesters to go..
Rasa macam sangatlah lama..
Well,takder la lama sangat kot if I keep myself busy with school work and activities..


Everyone is stressin' out lately.
The final is in two weeks.
Saper tak stress, so do I.
Insyallah,I'll go through this..
I just have to lepak and takyah nak gelabah sangat ..haha..
..then, after that.. leh balek KL..woohoo~
can't wait!!! There are so much things I wanna do and also lepaking with
people that I love..
Wish me luck for the final! *peace*



Love - ANN

Special kind of somethin'..

the lyrics is meaningful.

Ramadhan and Lebaran...

...so here I am in United States,celebrating Ramadhan for almost a month now and Lebaran (Eidulfitri) soon. Yea, this is my 1st time being alone here.Noone wimme and it seems like a very boring environment to celebrate by myself.*sigh* But, this will be something normal for me next time I guess.Alhamdulillah,my fasting month is smooth so far.Its just, I miss the atmosphere where people are selling kuih/juadah from 1-7pm every single day for a month.Besides,the moment of walking through Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman during fasting month when people are busy looking for stuffs for raya...is the besttttt momentttttt.... the atmosphere, the people... its just... urghhhh... i like it!!!! ( I miss that moment already)

I've been through some breakdown lately.You know, the feeling of being lonely especially without my beloved mother and family, and also friends.The moment of breaking fast in KL is just soooooo cooollll...no matter where the location is... but its all still remain in my head.. urghhhh....Guys, I miss all of u so muchhhhh.... all those kuih keeps banging in my head....

Whatever it is,...I can't wait for lebaran this year...I wonder how it is like to be here and celebrate Lebaran with all new people... It must be so exciting!!!!! I hope it will be the most memorable Lebaran ever... Insyallah. I will always pray for the best...


p/s : to all Muslims all over the world,if you happen to read this,Happy Lebaran
and Maaf Zahir Batin...

Over it. . .

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.

(..fully dedicated to someone..)

Goodbye to you. . .

Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days passed me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I used to get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you

The story ends. . .

. . .So,the story is finally over.Phew~~ I was strugglin dealin with it for quite long. Why should I drag myself into that kinda life which is full of sorrow,denial,upset,doubts and nothin bigger than HURT. Well,...I shouldn't expect life will be roses all the time.Today, I get hurt, tomorrow I'll be happy..the next day,maybe someone else is betrayin me..next month I might meet a new person and so on.I guess,..that is the simple pattern of life which is too complicated to understand. As for me, a very young girl with visions in life will always be strong and believe in myself. Noone else can help me but only ME. I just feel like running away from all the pain and misery. But, if I avoid or try to run away, I will never learn anythin at all. I would never know how to handle myself when I get hurt, upset, angry or lost. I used to just run away from problems, and yes, it doesn't work! It doesn't help me to be a better person. I used to think it was such a way to get rid off the pain. Nope, I was totally wrong. Noone tell me,noone guide me,..but I realize that myself... HOW? Its all about the experiences and wise thinkin. . .

Its not even a year I'm here in United States. I can't believe that I've dealin with too much DRAMA by the people around me.I know, whether I like it or not, I just had to face and deal with it.Too bad,those people might think that I would fail and torn apart,..but I am standin still... movin on to the next chapter. . . They're tryin too hard to make me fall and keep on creating damages. They might never realize, the damages that I've gotten so far,turned out to be the best tools ever to be a better person. I have seen so much DRAMA from the people that I care and trust. Why do they did that?. . . I have no perfect answers for all the questions but what I can clearly see now is : MY PASSION in life ; myself & my visions. I wonder how people can just turned out to be an individual who is totally different after awhile... or was it me who never acknowledge or wise enough to know them? I take it as somethin positive,...cuz I'm glad am still standin tough... never changed to be less than what I am, but a better person... I gained so much lately. . . Nothin to be regret about, nothin to be worry about... nothin to be cry for anymore. . . am grateful cuz God will always be with me. . . Thank U God, you heard me!!! I know, U will always give me the best. . .

This is one of the pieces that am writing to fill up my blogs and washin away my pain. . . Its all good. . . I felt so much better now. . . I might take years to get over it... It doesn't mean, am shuttin down myself for anyone who will appreciate me more than I do for myself. . someone out there is waitin for me to love me and I will never neglect him, as I have so much love to give. . . God, he deserves my pure love, give him to me when U believe it is time. . . meanwhile, I know U won't give up givin me challenges...

. . .life is like a painting. Its to vague to see the messages and the motive. I'm movin on. . . to live life, lead life better..everyday. Thank you so much to all of you who had paid me PAIN,BETRAYAL,LIES and BULLSHITS. Its your lost, and I gained too much. . . Thank you, thank you and thank you. . . I will never hate you guys,but truly appreciate what you have done to my life so far. The damages was great but not that faboulous. Try harder. . .


p/s : ..someone looked at me and says,"You are too beautiful to get hurt".
I replied, "I am too hurt to be beautiful...".

The orientation was sucha crazy one!!!!

Yesterday was the International Students Orientation for Fall 2007.There were at least 70 new international students from all over the world. The orientation starts at 1-5.30pm. I was up as early as 8am as all the ambassador should be there for the preparation @ 10am. So, I was there since 10am till at least 8pm. We also had a WELCOME PARTY for all of them soon as we finished with the orientation. There were tons of foods, soft drinks,..cookies,fruits and also... people... hahaha.. I had really a tremendous moment yesterday. Almost everyone play the pool. I played tons of frames with different people. It was really fun too. I get to know the way they play and their skills.They were all good! GOSH! I am so weakkkk!!! hahaha.. Overall, yesterday was really good although I felt so tired.Really exhausted actually.But,on top of everythin else, being an ambassador is making me opening up myself for more possibilities that I would see.Thank God for the opportunity.I'll use this as my stepping stone to move forward and achieve bigger agenda in the future. ROCK!!!!